A Prayer in the Face of Suicide
(My heart breaks for a friend of mine as I write this.) O LORD, God of my salvation, I cry out to you in this time because salvation and hope seem so far away. The darkness is thick as mud. The dread is deep as a pit. I cry out with the Psalmist, " Is your steadfast love declared in the grave, or your faithfulness in Abaddon? Are your wonders known in the darkness, or your righteousness in the land of forgetfulness " (Psalm 88:11-12)? The way ahead seems lost in the haze. I have no where else to turn. " But I, O LORD, cry to you; in the morning my prayer comes before you. O LORD, why do you cast my soul away? Why do you hide your face from me " (Psalm 88:13-14)? My only comfort is that your Son has entered this darkness with me and for me, " Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani? " (...) " My God, my God, why have you forsaken me " (Mark 15:34)? Come, Lord, take this pain away. Come and remove the grief in my heart! Oh dear God, why? Why this? I feel w